I physically, mentally, and physically can't deal with Shark any more.So I sent him this;
I've been trying to figure out how to
have this conversation with you in a medium that would actually allow
you to hear what I have to say. I wasn't going to blow up your phone
with a 15 page text, because personally, I really hate that.
Basically, this is something I need to
get off my chest, and while your opinions are important to me, I need
you to hear this first.
I told you that I liked you, that I had
feelings for you. I also told you I'd had them for a while, and had
never acted on them. Was I ever expecting anything to happen between
us? No. You can have feelings for someone and not need them to have
them in return. I say 'had'. Because originally, I thought you and I
were pretty similar, logical, adventurous, and always needing sex.
However, since we started sleeping together, this has proven to be
the exact opposite. The way you've reacted to many thing since we
started having sex, has completely killed any feelings I had. So, I
guess good for you? Your emotional overreaction to everything, has
made you extremely unattractive to me. The only way us sleeping
together happened the last time, is because I was turned on that we
were fighting. I was willing to initially deal with your crazy,
because the sex was good. But honestly Kyle, no penis is worth this.
Your initial offer of, a deeper friendship and no-strings-attached
sex, was what I wanted. You've sadly proven that at this point,
that's not a relationship you can handle. That's fine. I would still
like us to remain the caliber of friends we once were, but the fact
that you 'assume' the phrases; “I love you.'', “I want your
babies.” or “I think we should get married.” are something that
would ever come out of my mouth regarding you, insults me on the
deepest level. I trusted you to not treat me any differently after we
had sex. You broke that trust. If you want to continue being friends,
(and dude, I really would like that), you cannot treat me like that.
Ignoring this will not make it go away, in fact it will make it
worse. Whether you feel the need to give me feedback on this or not,
I would really like us to start talking again.
And I thought that maybe if he knew where I was coming from, we could work on our relationship and get back to where we once started. I mean would I like to continue having sex with him? OBVIOUSLY. I have never been more sexually satisfied. Which is so effing strange, because we don't even have the type of sex that I'm into. But do I think we can continue having sex with the way things are now? Not at all. His brain just doesn't seem to connect the right things together. It's odd, I'm pretty sure he's Bi-Polar, because, I've seen the same things I used to do before I was medicated, in him....another effing can of worms....
