So remember last year, that guy I so discreetly mentioned.....in my post "Awkwardness"? Let's just say......I contacted him...... (So many ellipsis!!!) He sounds so awesome. And I really want me meet him. So much so in fact, that I'm checking my email every 5 minutes to see if he's written me back. He hasn't. You know, as well as I do that I have a whole effing lot of regrets. And while I knew it was unwise to start something with him last year in my horrid state, I can't help but thinking, that I may be too late. That I've missed my chance. He's been in the back of my mind for a year. That should tell me something. But have I been in his? How any other girls has he met? Does he now love one of them? Have I missed the most perfect person ever? Right, I'm getting ahead of myself, but seriously! I think all this and it's starting to drive me mad. Why won't he just get online and let me know. See, I also happen to think, I won't be awesome enough for him. (In real life, yes, but not on paper.) ARGH!Eff.
