Make A Mistake

I have a ridiculous Demi Lovato song stuck in my head. "Give Your Heart A Break" it's catchy....but really, I know I have better taste. But sometimes you wonder, why songs get stuck in your head? Is it the tune, or the words? Is there a deeper meaning? Maybe I over think things....see so much in little things, that really mean nothing.

Crush

Today, I still feel angry. I will for a while longer, because I know I need to let myself be. I am open about the anger problems I have. most people laugh in disbelief, and my friends don't take it seriously. Why should they, I never act out in front of them. I keep calm, cool, collected. But right now, I really want to curb stomp someone. I want to make someone feel the pain I feel. So I know I'm not alone. I don't know. I'm effed in the head. Right? That can't be normal. Can it?


"Anger is a short madness." 
- Horace

Hold

So here's how I feel right now. Abandoned, betrayed, over-dramatic. And effing pissed. My father. Enough said. He made it sound like my new life changes were in the process, and he fails to mention my move and school to my step-mother. She naturally freaks out and vetos it. Wonderful. Fine, I'll stay here with my promotion. I do things on my own, since I obviously can't count on you to try and rectify your failures as parents in the past. Thanks for that. They don't even know me, they don't seem to want to. And that's fine, really it is, but you can't make assumptions based on not knowing people, or how they live their lives now. I'm not the one who has failed. They have. I'm not the one who is limeted. They are. And I AM NOT THE ONE WHO WILL FALL. I believe I have already proven that.