I know that I'm not a girl in most senses. I'm a logical thinker. I'm relatively unemotional. Yet, when I see someone, who's absence has made me question. Question much, that I've been denying. When I see him, I'm the happiest I've been in months. MONTHS. It's amazing and terrifying that one person can make you like that. And then there is the time that you spend trying to undo all the subtext. Your logical brain says you are right, but you keep trying to convince yourself that it's just the girlish emotion, trying to 'do you in' .... But you wish, that maybe this time, you're right, and maybe this time, something will happen.....and you want to have hope, but you know when you do, it's always disappointing. But this time, I wouldn't care.
