I'm miserable. 100% of me. I'm currently sitting in the back room of my store, on my laptop, during my lunch. I effing hate everything and everyone right now. I know what changed. I stopped being twtterpated, started acting Bro (as per usual...) and I thought everything was going to go back to le normal. False. First, Socks gets the one thing I wanted. Second I lose something I had. Third, it's my fault for wanting both the first and second things. Fourth, I'm effing invisible. Unbelievably invisible. Like, I get it, just tell me that's you need to step out, don't make a effing power play, and make me wait for you. Sorry, ranting is stupid. Menial. The only thing right now that's making me even a shred happy, is that I get to go visit my dad next month. But even that joy flickers when I go back to my apartment take a shower, pour myself a glass of wine and sit on my bed with my laptop, and realize how quiet it is....... EFF. I don't even know any more. I keep waiting for something amazing to happen to me but... wait, let me rephrase that, I keep waiting for someone amazing to happen to me, but that only seems to happen to the people who want and deserve it the least. You know, because that's fair. False. FALSE.
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